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Hi my names Joe Im a single Dad to 3 . Life is great and God is good but it wasn't always . I was born in Pitts. Pa. I grew up in a small town in western Pa. a place called Irwin . There was Dad and Mom and 5 kids 4 boys 1 girl . I had fun growing up there , Dad worked at a steel mill Mom was a R.N. in a Pitts. Hosp. I think I was about 11 yrs old when Dad had his first heart attack and a bout with pancreatitis that almost killed him he spent months in a V.A. Hosp. Mom work to support the family . This is where life started its twist and turns for me Mom had to make a decisision to place my little brother and me in a foster home and sister to an Aunts home . I ended up on a farm in Shanksville, Pa. they only wanted a farm hand not a kid so needless to say there wasn't much love there . I would run away on accasions only to be taken right back, till I tryed suicide , I'm glad today I wasn't successful . I did end up going to another home temporily which wasn't bad they were real good to me and treated me real good. I was 13 yrs old when I finaly went back home Dad was still recuperating but doing better enough he was able to go home also. It was great to be a family again but it didn't last long 6mos. later my younger Bro. and Sis. was killed by a drunk driver while they were riding their bikes on Saturday morning 11:oo May 22 1971 . Life ended for me as I knew it and would never be the same again . At the age of 16 2 yrs after that tragedy we moved to Canton , Ohio , It was here I was introduced to drugs and alcohol. I started rebelling and me and Dad got in one fight after another then Thanksgiving Day 1977 Dad died of a massive heart attack at the age of 53 . Mom threw her self into her work still nursing at a local Hosp. and privaty duty nursing I believe now that was her way to escape all the tragedy , but here I was 20 yrs old depressed that life could end like this I threw myself deeper into the drugs and booze. I forgot to mention that moving here meant I left all my childhood friends and they were good ones to find new ones to do all the drugs with. For almost 10yrs I traveled down and I do mean down that rough rocky road and I know today I chose that road . I relize today they were only friends as long as you payed for them or got them high . I got married I had a son at the age 34 , one morning while shaving the person looking at me in the mirror wasn't me . I didn't like like him and visa versa . I found a new friend that morning I ask God to forgive me and ask Jesus to take control of my out of control life after all how could I take care of a little boy when I wasn't taking care of me very well . I quit drinking and haven't been in a bar now in over 18 yrs , I have gone thru a couple divorces and am now raising my sons little girls and another 6 yr old son . I love life and get great enjoyment raising these little ones . I hope they never go down the same path I walked . I lost my middle bro. to cancer almost 5 yrs ago hes with God today , that leaves me and my older bro and Mom who lives with me and helps as much as she can , Only God knows how she could bare all shes lost . The only regret today is Dad didn't live long enough for me to tell him I'm sorry that he was right and I was wrong and I love him , Mom says he knew but that doesn't give me much comfort . I hope he meets me at the gate one day with the rest of the family . Until then I have a lot left to do here im teaching my kids about Jesus and his LOVE , and looking for a women who would put up with me